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APPARENTFUCKINGLY

2009-06-09T22:26:35Z

apparentfuckingly.wordpress.com

is the name of my new all encompassing journal. All old livejournal posts & USF blog posts have been merged into one and I will continue to post in wordpress! However, that does not mean I will not log in and check on my friends' journals...so keep posting and keep rocking.

lovemily

eff this year.

2009-06-01T23:04:11Z

I get to win out of all of us for the stupidest reason to have to go to the hospital.

Cat bite. No joke. Blackie bit me three times and the wounds were pretty deep but I shrugged it off, cleaned 'em up, and drove to school. Two hours later, I'm still bleeding and my arm was twice the size it should be, plus this ridiculous ache of fire that echoed the feeling of having a broken leg. So I do what best.

I cry a whole lot.

Then I go to the hospital. They give me heavy duty antibiotics and painkillers. I was there for a fucking hour. I can tell June is going to be a fabulous month already.

הילל בן־שׁחר

2009-05-17T18:41:17Z

To know such good exists in the world is a tough topic for me to recognize. Tough because I feel like I have no right to know about anything good in life and perhaps that is also part of my punishment. I've never understood fully why I felt so ugly, helpless, and sad. Until recently, I had come to the conclusion that I was simply too emotional, always going after the wrong types of guys (or those who are emotionally unavailable) and many friends have echoed that.

A remark Dustin said remains with me. Excuse the paraphrasing but basically he said that I thought I was better than everyone else. I fought him to the teeth and I was seriously offended at the time. I'm not offended anymore because he was right.

I no longer believe that lack of romantic love is a considerable contribution to my state of mind, there is more to my life than just that. To be so close to all that is good and all the light and to never have any of it, I'm envious. My life is not terrible and I try not to forsake my friends, my studies, for it does bring me close to this semblance of happiness. But there are some days I get the sickos. These skeevy, gross assholes who intend to follow me to my car, shake my hand but squeeze it too hard. I can see it in their eyes, empty but on the surface floats all of their momentary desires. I do not fault them; they are only human, simply existing to exist. At least that is what they represent to me.

On a whim, I decided to look up the fall of Lucifer. I feel a little retarded for saying it but I fucking sympathize.

"You were blameless in your ways from the day that you were created, until iniquity was found in you. In the abundance of your trade you were filled with violence, and you sinned; so I cast you as a profane thing from the mountain of God, and the guardian cherub drove you out from among the stones of fire. Your heart was proud because of your beauty; you corrupted your wisdom for the sake of your splendor. I cast you to the ground; I exposed you before kings, to feast their eyes on you. By the multitude of your iniquities, in the unrighteousness of your trade, you profaned your sanctuaries. So I brought out fire from within you; it consumed you, and I turned you to ashes on the earth in the sight of all who saw you. All who know you among the peoples are appalled at you; you have come to a dreadful end and shall be no more forever" (Ezekiel 28:15-19).

I hope I quoted that right or DS will have my head on a platter.
And for interpretation...I found this video...elucidating without being ridiculous, I felt.

Fuck my life

2009-05-02T02:51:08Z

Thank you DS for the internet gold.

Some of my favorites:

Today, I was walking downstairs to the subway. At the top of the stairs this hobo was peeing. Two seconds before, I told my friend I felt rain. It wasn't rain. FML

Today, I got in the shower, washed my hair and shaved because I wanted to look great for a big date. I got out, brushed and dried my hair and spent an hour putting it up in the perfect hairstyle. Running late, I quickly put on my new dress, looked down and realized i had only shaved one leg. FML

Today, I had to pee really bad so I tried to unlock my door as fast as I could. I put my key in and turned it too hard, the key snapped inside. I ended up peeing on myself. FML

"Not only do they look great, they also protect my eyeballs from super tiny sharks."

lookatthisfuckinghipster.com for realz

Crying men & back in school again.

2009-01-06T02:55:32Z

Bromance. Really, Brody? More like tool factory but that's not what I came here to talk about. Those aren't real men. Those aren't even awesome metrosexual men. I could whip all of those cats.

Starting off on a good foot, I have a 20 page reasearch paper to do for my Health, Illness, & Culture class. What I'm really interested in is the connection between the mind and body and the mind's ability to heal but not necessarily cure an individual. To tie it all in, I'm focusing on the healing aspects of music. Finally, it comes full circle. As much as I could love to write fiction, I don't believe I'm as focused in that area to do so and maybe I feel it's a little pointless. Perhaps someone will find my perspective enlightening, who knows?

Plus there are, like, two really cute guys that sit across from me.

Oh, carnal desires! You rule me.

(& Thanks for having me, Liz. I posted pictures on my flickr! & I'm going to probably e-mail you once in a while with neat, non-traditional wedding dresses.) SKIDOOOOO!

I love soccer.

2008-06-12T16:13:08Z

Yeah. That's about it.

Not an update.

2008-06-02T15:59:26Z

Just something I almost wet myself reading.

bat shit.

2008-01-17T01:28:56Z

recent events have led me to believe that I'm most honest when I'm insane. I hold nothing back. unfortunately, when I'm at this brink of slap-stick retardedness, I am almost horribly brutal but still, only passive.

down to using one crutch, but two makes my ground speed much faster. then I usually have to course correct because I've overstepped and end up doing 3 hops on my good leg. skip-hop-hop-hop and the carpet goes sailing beneath my feet. what's sad is that we all take mobility for granted. I'm so angry with myself for not pushing my body to a more perfect level of physical fitness when I could actually run. I understand I will run again, but knowing it and feeling the time go by like a slow-tracer on an elaborate piece of art makes it unbearable not because I've gained 5lbs while being a poorly constructed pile of flesh in decline on a hospital bed, but because I could've done so much more.

if you ever want to feel like you haven't done much with your life, watch the travel channel. arriving home, there was a special on the Fjordlands of New Zealand. one woman described it as being in an enchanted forest and as she said it, her face had the look of perfect admiration and wonder. this land has remained the same since it was first discovered. I cried a little bit. there's not a whole lot more I want than to be able to experience that feeling and to own that look. at least if I go bat-shit crazy there, I'll live in a tree and enjoy watching the Keas ripping shit off cars. because they're bastards and we all know how much I like bastard-assholes.

neglect LJ again, I shall not. it has many saving graces.

I wonder...

2007-12-21T16:18:19Z

If I get a magnet...will it stick to my leg?...does anyone know the magnetic properties of titanium? hmm. wikipedia...

under my umbrella...ella...ella

2007-06-03T00:17:26Z

so I'm really stoked about cooking.

do you like my mood lighting? hahaha.

Really. Love the beach. Love it.

It's time for a new swim suit.

Erin!

Dude ya'll, it's like tent city for lovebugs instead of homeless people. At least it looks nice here.

Seriously, he's got the best expression in every photo.

motherfuck. I should make a baby book for Peanut.

check it...look how denis is looking at ds.

thank you, dana.

dana's baby jail

mm

kind of creepy...

The to die for peanut dip.

denis and the myspace shots.

really fucking creepy.

aw. now that's nice.

Bloc Party. I ended up taking more pictures with dana's camera than my own...so mine:

mmmkhang

dana's:

dana in blobs

yeah yeah yeah...

and then there was food...glorious food.

Semen-y cake!

of montreal & the flaming lips

2007-04-17T21:33:43Z

...but not in that order :)

of montreal:

next we shall have CLAP YOUR HANDS SAY YEAH!!!! oooooooooooh yeah... dance party? anyone? anyone? :)

Off switch.

2007-03-29T14:07:56Z

Yesterday, I really wanted an Icee. I haven't had one since I was probably 10 or 12. I spilled it everywhere, trying to overfill the cup with the dome lid. I guess it just came out too fast. And then I got brainfreeze. It was some good shit, I'll tell you that.

It's the simple things we all really have to savor. Not hot boys or how much money we make...it's all in the quality of happiness.

wamp wamp, what it do?

2007-02-23T15:04:37Z

it do not a damn thing.

bid adieu to old baby:

so instead of wasting my time being upset-I've been calling dealerships (inbtw calling the insurance company) and I've pretty much made my mind up. I hope this will be my new baby.

or the lovely leather interior of:

both have a sunroof! I'm kind of diggin' on the wagon, plus it's more adult.

it's kind of funny though, my old iPod was named "boyfriend" and now my new one is "new boyfriend!" (yes with the exclaimation point).

======================================
moms against asshole drivers:
I am curious as to why the man who plowed (notice the word choice) into my daughter's car in the
early hours of Wednesday morning was not arrested for driving with a
suspended license? I just checked his record on the Pinellas County Court
website and found he has twenty eight traffic violations.

I realize there were 'no witnesses' to my daughter's accident, thus he
can not be charged, but what happens to a man who continues to endanger the
public by driving without a license? Why should he or anyone follow the
rules if there are no repercussions? Clearly this last accient, in which he
was not even driving his own car, will not serve to instill any sense of
responsibility in him. He is free to continue driving.

I know I am an upset parent, but I just don't get it.

Thank you in advance for any help you might provide.

Cynthia Chisholm

Note: I am referencing Crash report number 08996655, and if Mr. Timothy
Lee Murand was arrested later then I'm sure my daughter would love to k now
about it.

saturday night's alright for fighting

2007-01-29T03:57:08Z

this weekend was crazy excellent and I was sad to go back to the burg. I met a good group of dana's friends in gainesville and we basically did nothing but party the shit out of that town. fun was had by all, I'm damn proud to say. I hope liz is rocking new york city hardcore as long as she's there. just don't pass out on the street, love.

# of dana & emily noise citations/warnings issued to date: 2

but we're so fucking innocent!

DJ of spam allstars performing at the atlantic and the roadie who rubbed my belly.

dana's roomie, amanda.

amanda's cat, tony the tiger.

making vegan chili mac!

party on the top of the fridge

the rum bottle. killed after two days. good night and goodbye.

the town looks like a haunted house through my camera lens.

saturday night...@speakeasy bar.

romeo + juliet, anyone?

helter skelter!

soon to be wasted.

pregaming, saturday night.

trying to use a rum lid as an eye patch just wasn't working.

what happens when you let a drunk guy operate the camera.

I got sexy ladies

making a mess feels like home.

so this is where the debauchery begins

apparently bennett(?) thought I messed up his precious rubix cube. he was probably right but whatever, he didn't finish it.

jeff and dana!

drunkvision

seriously, those noodles appeared out of thin air.

how precious

the whiskey flows free with new young lawyers of america (and an executive chef)

are we done yet?

...not even close

bad product placement

it figures I'd meet an awesome guy and he's moving. :(

the night that didn't end until 1pm on sunday was met with a half eaten tacos and beautiful skies.

donnie darko anyone?

paw prints and footsteps

thank you for having me, you classy bitch. thank you to amanda and heather for putting up with nonstop giggles and straight up guffawing. I'll be back soon, and not just for the testosterone laced nights. probably for the food, too. <3 haha

daft young ones

2007-01-21T16:36:20Z

mr. d-enis getting ready

while on the toilet, I took these 3 shots. what can I say? charity's bathroom alone is inspiring.

without flash...haha

my fingers look like the only focused things in the picture...man...I need to figure out my camera so I can operate it drunk.

it's so close...

2006-10-24T23:18:19Z

Smashing Pumpkins discuss new album

It's 'sounding fantastic' says comeback band

Smashing Pumpkins
have revealed details of their long-awaited comeback album.

Drummer Jimmy Chamberlin has spoken about the progress
of the record, the as-yet untitled follow up to 2000's 'MACHINA: The Machines Of God'.

On the
Smashing Pumpkins Myspace page
the drummer blogged about how the recording sessions were going.

Chamberlin wrote: "Great things are on track
for the future. As some of you know we are indeed creating music again. Music
that comes from a place so pure it will burn the lies off the very souls of
those who try to discount it.

"We have arrived at a place in our lives
where truth and honesty prevail and we are creating from that place."

The
drummer added that the group have worked on some tracks with Queen producer Roy
Thomas Baker.

"Working with RTB was not only an honour but also one of the
best musical experiences we have ever had," he explained. "We are currently
working with Terry Date (Pantera, Soundgarden) and that is going great as well.

"The universe has a way of letting you know that things are right by
introducing people like RTB and Terry into the fold. It's all part of one big
cosmic journey, in so that everyone reading this is hitching their silver chord
to the Great Pumpkin Space Train! Hope
this helps clear some things up for you."

Aside from Chamberlin and leader Billy Corgan, it is not clear yet whether the
other original members - guitarist James
Iha and bassist D'arcy Wretzky -
will be involved. Wretzky was replaced by
Melissa Auf der Maur in the last
incarnation of the band - there has been no word from her whether she will be
taking part either.